December 15th, 2025 - Understanding the Science

Dear TNY,

I’m back, baby!  “Understanding the Silence” is today’s meal.

And what a light and unfulfilling meal it is.  My biggest beef is that I can’t understand the POV or the psychic distance.  I felt like we were in one woman’s head, then we fell into another, and then we went into the actor’s head.  But, like, why?  There were no section breaks to delineate.  No warnings.  And also no definite distance from which we saw. Close thoughts all the way to an almost omniscient voice without feeling. Which, sure, is fine.  But it felt like the author was fumbling around and that lack of consistency doesn’t give me confidence in samesaid author.  Which doesn’t give me confidence in the story. 

I enjoyed the balcony scene, ish.  The actor’s section was dumb.  I appreciated how much dialogue was in this, because it quickened the pace.  But I didn’t really give a shit about what they had to say.  And, finally, I love that it was under 6,000 words.  Bravo!

Boy I had a week.  Last Wednesday I read all the letters I wrote to you this year (prep for the review).  And it was hard.  More on that later.  I’m just…I’m just astonished.  What a body of work this all is, eh guys?  Like, we’ve really done a thing here. 

I talked to the therapist again.  I made K laugh.  I made her dad laugh.  I made others laugh.  I did some work on a woodshop.  I didn’t shit my pants.  And I jerked off enough to tear a tiny little wound on the head of my dick.  But you guys know me.  That won’t stop nothing!

I wanted to die again this week.

I ache for her.  You hear me?  Ache.

And good for me.  Love is fucking awesome.  It’s the best drug there is.  But MDMA is a close second, especially if you have a lovely person to take it with that wants to crawl inside your mouth, and you in hers, and she’s absolutely pumped (puns!) to have you put anything and everything growing off your body into her body, anywhere you want.  What I would consider a great honor, to be allowed access to said body, she also would consider an honor to have me of all people enter.  How fucking spectacular.

Anyway, I didn’t die.  Today is a good one.  I don’t have much else to say.

Nick

P.S. Today I was able to look at the light and appreciate every second I got.